hmmmm how does one be thankful when they are lightheaded and a bit dizzy, queasy, snotty and lethargic? When they went to Dublin for the weekend and didn't get to see their girlie friends and anyone they did see they couldn't engage properly with? When their house is a tip and wrecking their head? When the weather is dull and grey and winter is approaching?
ehmmmmmmm.....ok here goes some positivity....
My daughter is not whingey and irritating like she was last week. She went happily off to creche this morning. It was bizarre because I dressed her in a pair of trousers that I bought for my niece 3 years ago which have now been passed on to Acorn. I never thought then I would be blessed to have a little girl to dress. I never felt particularly maternal or had a desire to have children of my own. I guess something changed along the way. I met the lovely greenfingers and knew that life didn't revolve around me and that it would be a positive thing to create our own miracle, an extension of ourselves, a child of God.
She is a joy, our little Acorn. Full of fun, of life. Adventurous, but not recklessly so. Loving but not clingy. Confident but still mummy's girl. Beautiful. Healthy. My darling girl.
It is hard to admit that I am doing a good job. I spend a lot of time looking at my failures in parenting. But greenfingers recently reminded me of how much love I have given her, and how much more I have to give. I must try and focus on that.
Right...off for a clean-up....
all this darkness is a small and passing thing
6 years ago
Acorn is child full of wonder and joy and that is due in no small part to your parenting.
ReplyDeleteHonestly, if you ever doubt your parenting abilities, look no further then your acorn to see how truly fabulous you are :) I am so lucky to count you as one of my friends.
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